Friday, May 14, 2010

And Five.

Thank you for the support and recommendations! Knowing that I have a little network of supportive friends and family really means a lot as I nervously navigate through the choppy waters of sugar addiction.
Today, I wanted bread and pastries so bad! But I held strong and stayed true to myself. I had a small bowl of black bean soup for lunch and it was incredibly delicious! When I got out of work I had a plum, and dinner will be brown rice and red kidney beans. I've only got a few days left of solid foods, anyway, since I'll be having a tooth pulled Monday morning. I'm going to turn down the pain killers (except for the over the counter stuff) and stick with liquids for a week. There are a couple of juice recipes I'm interested in trying out and tasting. Also, I'll have bananas to mash and veggie broth with barley. If it's cooked for long enough, I can enjoy the barley in "soup form" without feeling the need to chew it.
All in all, this is still hard, but it's getting better as the days roll by. This month, in general is nothing but a big ball of stress. So, if I can make it past June 1st without giving in, I think it will get much easier. I'd like to think that I could have a cookie in a year, but, knowing the severity of my addiction, I don't think that will ever be an option again. Maybe I can come up with some sort of sugar free(including honey and agave), totally natural fruit cookie sans flours and other bad carbs...
Maybe...

4 comments:

  1. i don't know if you can make a cookie w/o flour and sugar...sounds crazy. ;P
    the thing about giving something up is that you have to keep reminding yourself that it's not like it will never be available if you turn it down 'this time'. and each time you say, 'I can still have that later if i really need it' but don't go back for it...it gets easier. there is a slippery slope when/if you DO decide to 'take one bite' at some point.
    it's a very difficult thing you are doing...keep up the good work!!

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  2. Yeah, that's what I'm afraid of; "just one bite." Tomorrow will make a full week of sugar free living! I'm proud of myself and my body is learning to trust me and let me make the decisions of what it should have. No more lookie-looin' in the ice cream and cookie aisles (even though I had to go through them to get the frozen items for my juice for the upcoming week), and no more hands with minds of their own reaching out. I can control my cravings...kinda...when someone offers me blueberry muffins even! I did today, in fact! Thanks, Jen! *^_^*

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  3. Tooth to be pulled. -le sigh- Best wishes with that, and with your coming week of choices.

    Lotsa' hugs!!!

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  4. Thanks, Auntie Am! *^_^* Today is the tooth day, and the beginning of week numero dos! I'll post about it when I get home. Luckily, I'm stopping by Anam Cara's for a vist, and she's offered to do some reiki on my mouth. Yea! for health!

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